I could so easily let myself be swallowed by the desire to do research for Choice - I feel it. I am walking the knife edge between feeling confident in the work and being subsumed by the creeping doubt that it is not enough. Because I feel as if I have not devled deeply enough, not created enough density in the material, let myself be taken over the story I am telling. It does not feel as if it is a part of me. And all this feels like I am falling into dangerous waters, shark-infested waters that threaten to capsize my craft and drag me under until I can no longer figure out which way the sun is nor find breath to keep me going. It is worrisome and I feel I could so easily go under and never finish this work.